"They say" I hv changed~~~ brutally love?? no...i ain't tat bad
I knew how bad my tempered is compared to last time, how impatient I am compared to last time, how demanding I am compared to last time, how unreasonable I am compared to last time... With all my bad 'sins', you just accepting all of it~~
So well that I am absolute stubborn to be that mean girl which i knew you deserve more than that.....
I feel nothing yesterday and any day before until today you gonna leave...
An hour and a half to the airport was just nothing for me because u still beside me.
When we are at the airport, I am so delighted that ur plane delay an hour late which you dont know how glad i am.
So u insist to watch me drive away from airport rather than sending u into the custom....so i did... and i can feel the horror is approaching while i drove out the airport.... As i drove, sending a sms telling me u left a letter in the car..doesnt help at all....and so i stop the car beside the highway and read it...line by line, my tears can stand no more and just flow....and giving u a call...
80kms road back home~~
at the 60kms...i am feeling despair, and tears coming down the 2nd times
at the 40kms...i see the familiar suburd road sign and i seem to be calmer as I am accepting the fact that you are not here and i cant change the fact tat i m going home alone without u this time and telling myself i gotto move on...
at the 20kms...oh no good...I can see the road sign of my suburd road... every moment we spent together flash through my mind....it feels like the road is endlessly with tears and tears
at the 5kms...seeing all the buildings, the roads, the stores, i feel so strange, they turn to be so unfamiliar to me just because without you....
Reach Home...as i wander and stare.... Then i realize how much i miss you and how much i love you...3 mths..hope everything stay the same as we pray and wait....
Waking up in the morning of 6am and long distance drive doesnt make us look cheerful ^^
